just as i thought life can never get any worse than now, something nice happened. my internet worked and in a speed that i like. so i shall post an entry.





talked to mama on the phone yesterday cos my day could not have gotten any worse so i got superbly homesick and called mama..yeps, this lousy girl talked till she cried..i don't know why but yes i cried. maybe afterall it wasn't such a big deal. mummy got kinda worried and keep telling me i have to be strong..and after a night of sleep, i decided to stay on strong and im so gonna face everything like a fighter baby.ha. getting a lil cranky cos i only had like 3 hours of sleep.





it ain't my fault that i know new people and it ain't my fault that the person came looking for me and worse, telling me he likes me. so what if you people saw me with him? i don't really care what you have seen or what you think about me after that but don't strat actig weird and giving that you-are-trying-to-shun-me kinda of look and DON'T give me that oh-you-are-such-a-bitch kinda of feeling. i can't stop him from doing what he wants to but by making me feel guilty and feel all like bitch just didn't help make things ANY better.



and what's to add on to the misery? having people whom i thought would understand the situation saying stuff like 'wah he's very fan can, calling everyday,so damn naggy'. that just made me felt worse cos i never intended for him to irritate any of the room mates by calling. when did i ever say anything when some one just talked outside my room in the volume of 200 decibels regardless of whether we're sleeping inside the room or not. when did express a wee bitof displeasure when i wanna use the phone and you said you're waiting for call and want me to use the phone only after you used the phone? all these don't matter anymore because i'm so over it now and try stepping over my head i make sure i'll stomp the brain juice outta you. god damn it, i never felt so bad before, i dont know what to do to make everything better. just kill me lars.